Where creative people get their inspiration?

1. "Roseanne" (1988) {Into That Good Night: Part 2 (#9.24)}
   

   Roseanne Conner: [closing monologue] Everyone wonders where creative people get their inspiration. Actually, I've found it's all around you.
   

2. Take Leon for instance... Leon is not really as cool as I made him. He's the only gay guy I know who belongs to the Elk's Club...
   

3. Then there's Scott. He really is a probate lawyer I met about a year ago and introduced to Leon. I guess I didn't get too creative there...
   

4. A lot of kids have called my son a nerd but, as I told him, they called Steven Spielberg a nerd too. A lot of times nerds are really artists who just listen to the beat of a different drum...
   

5. My mom came from a generation where women were supposed to be submissive about everything. I never bought into that, and I wish mom hadn't either. I wish she had made different choices. So I think that's why I made her gay. I wanted her to have some sense of herself as a woman... Oh yeah, and she's nuts...
   

6. My sister, in real life, unlike my mother, is gay. She always told me she was gay, but for some reason, I always pictured her with a man. She's been my rock, and I would not have made it this far without her. I guess Nancy's kind of my hero too... Cause she got out of a terrible marriage and found a great spiritual strength. I don't know what happened to that husband of hers but in my book I sent him into outer space...
   

7. When Becky brought David home a few years ago I thought, "This is wrong!" He was much more Darlene's type... When Darlene met Mark, I thought he went better with Becky... I guess I was wrong. But I still think they'd be more compatible the other way around. So in my writing, I did what any good mother would do. I fixed it...
   

8. I lost Dan last year when he had his heart attack. He's still the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep. I miss him... Dan and I always felt that it was our responsibility as parents to improve the lives of our children by 50% over our own. And we did. We didn't hit our children as we were hit, we didn't demand their unquestioning silence, and we didn't teach our daughters to sacrifice more than our sons.
   

9. As a modern wife, I walked a tight rope between tradition and progress, and usually, I failed, by one outsider's standards or another's. But I figured out that neither winning nor losing count for women like they do for men. We women are the one's who transform everything we touch. And nothing on earth is higher than that.
   

10. My writing's really what got me through the last year after Dan died. I mean at first I felt so betrayed as if he had left me for another women. When you're a blue-collar woman and your husband dies it takes away your whole sense of security. So I began writing about having all the money in the world and I imagined myself going to spas and swanky New York parties just like the people on TV, where nobody has any real problems and everything's solved within 30 minutes.
    

11. I tried to imagine myself as Mary Richards, Jeannie, That Girl. But I was so angry I was more like a female Steven Segal wanting to fight the whole world. For a while I lost myself in food and a depression so deep that I couldn't even get out of bed till I saw that my family needed me to pull through so that they could pull through.
    

12. One day, I actually imagined being with another man. But then I felt so guilty I had to pretend it was for some altruistic reason. And then Darlene had the baby, and it almost died. I snapped out of the mourning immediately, and all of my life energy turned into choosing life.
    

13. In choosing life, I realized that my dreams of being a writer wouldn't just come true; I had to do the work. And as I wrote about my life, I relived it, and whatever I didn't like, I rearranged. I made a commitment to finish my story even if I had to write in the basement in the middle of the night while everyone else was asleep. But the more I wrote, the more I understood myself and why I had made the choices I made, and that was the real jackpot.
    

14. I learned that dreams don't work without action; I learned that no one could stop me but me. I learned that love is stronger than hate.
    

15. And most important, I learned that God does exist. He and/or She is right inside you, underneath the pain, the sorrow, and the shame. I think I'll be a lot better now that this book is done.

Like a frisbee, it comes back

I used to have a boyfriend and he was the World to me. Everyone else can come next. Everyone else is secondary when he was around. So, I used to repetitively tell my single best friends, "I can't make it because I'm with my boyfriend".

Now it's the reverse. My best friends have boyfriends. So, now they tell me, "Can I have dinner with my boyfriend alone because it's my first time celebrating his birthday?" and "I can't make it because my boyfriend...."

I smiled at the thought of those words. Those familiar phrases that I used on my friends are now being used on me. It's true what goes around comes around. Like a Frisbee I fling out, it's coming back at me.

To my friends, I'm sorry for my ignorance.

Bang, Shriek, Thud

I heard some noise. Weird and disturbing. An extraordinary orchestra of shrieks and bangs and it finished off with a deafening silence.

I saw a woman covering her face in shock across the road. I saw onlooking men facing my side of the building. I looked down from my balcony and I saw a family coming out from their home to find out the noise. Within 30 seconds, they went back home and I went back to mine because from my angle, I couldn't see anything.

This morning when I woke up, I was told, two women fell down from their balcony and both died. The din etched a mark in my head and the deaths officially marked the third jump-off-balcony case at my place this year.

Perhaps it was a good thing, I didn't see anything last night.

3 Vietnamese women fall from 11th floor building in Penang, 1 survives

Updated: 13 Aug 2009

GEORGE TOWN: One of the three Vietnamese women who fell from the 11th floor of an apartment in an attempt to escape a police raid on Tuesday has survived despite having severe fractures. The 25-year-old woman is in stable condition at the Penang Hospital. The three were believed to have been involved in vice activities and police recovered pills, believed to be sexual stimulants, from the bags belonging to the two who died. The women, aged 23 and 33, died on the spot after they slipped while climbing out of the apartment unit in River Road here through a window and landed some 30m below. Their bodies were found in a pool of blood in the open space at the apartment block while the woman who survived landed in a garbage bin in the 9.50pm incident. SOURCE: The Star

Wondersation Conversation: You genuinely care for me or You care to make money?

Hairdresser: Oh God, your hair is so little and you've got Dandruff!
Dee: *smiles*
Hairdresser: You must take care and protect your scalp from now. You should use this anti-hair loss shampoo.
Dee: How much?
Hairdresser: Only RM98.

*One hour later*

Hairdresser: Your haircut is ready. Ta da.~ You should colour your hair, then it'll look more dimensional.
Dee: *smiles*

Dee: *Wonders if dyeing my hair would nourish or damage my hair*

Another Wondersation Conversation of the day.

settle for nothing but the bulls eye

You aim straight and settle for nothing but the bulls eye.

The following is from Christian D. Larson called the Optimist Creed. Personally, I prefer to call this my Sanity Pill. I take a dose when I think I'm losing my ground. I take a dose when I think I am about to get suffocated. I get a dose when I think my heart pumps too fast or that my blood pressure is too high.

But most of the time I only need to read the first line, "to be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind", to bring myself back to my normal state.

When I look around me, I hope people would expect the best and yet be forgiving to mistakes. I hope everyone would smile and keep moving on. I hope people would have faith in one another as much as they have faith in themselves.

I hope everyone sees life as a hike up Mount Everest or a dive down the deepest sea - where life is concerned you need courage, wisdom, trust, focus and perseverance to make things happen.

I Promise Myself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature you meet.

To give so much time to improving yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on your side, so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

By Christian D. Larson

Wondersation Conversation - Chimpandrew

KokoDaPia says: ho monkeydee

moneydee says: lol

KokoDaPia says: how are u?

KokoDaPia says: the tonsils?

moneydee says: hi champandrew

moneydee says: chimpandrew

KokoDaPia says: im a champ

moneydee says: lol... chimpandrew is DAMN HILARIOUS

KokoDaPia says: uhhh, thats so funny

moneydee says: hahahahaha

KokoDaPia says: nice try monkeydee

KokoDaPia says: u knw

KokoDaPia says: i got an idea

KokoDaPia says: we buy a comb of banana

moneydee says: why? and then??

KokoDaPia says: hollow one out and fill it with wasabi. then we give the whole comb to the monkeys. then we wait and see which one cries

moneydee says: so mean of you chimpandrew

KokoDaPia says: i knw u'll disagree with me since its monkeys

A Blue School Dress, Luffy and Danielle

That's Luffy and me. He's grown up a bit. His body is obviously longer but his legs are still short. It's fun to see him trodding.

Argh so hard to keep Luffy still.

Just bought this from Dorothy Perkins yesterday. Looking innocent in it. Muahaah.

Suddenly think I like low-res camera phone best bcos it just doesnt capture me so meticulously.

My guess is... I have a tendency to snap pics when I'm wearing my pajamas. I can imagine Yee Ting going, I got the same pajamas as yours. Sadly, I think I wear the same pajamas every day.

That's my current Facebook pic. When I uploaded this, I had Andrew in mind. Knowing he'd never sign up Facebook, I knew I have to continue loading pics in my blog. Otherwise, poor Andrew won't get to see my pics. Lol.

RANDOM THOUGHT #1

Talking about photos, my poor Nikon baby is collecting dust on my cupboard. I feel compelled to make good use of it. Maybe tomorrow and I'm gonna mean it! Oh yeah, there'll be tonnes of people reporting to work and I'm excited to meet new people and snap photos! I shall come up with a theme for tomorrow's photography. Hard Rock being Hard Rock, shall call it - Expressions of Individuality.

RANDOM THOUGHT #2

One day my bro commented that I wasn't good at make up. I couldn't agree more. Did a Google search and found a company in Penang offering free make up course worth RM1800 but it's fully subsidized by the government. Definitely going to check it out! Anyone wanna go with me?

RANDOM THOUGHT #3

With time at hand, it's time to make the visuals in my mind a concrete one. :)